A Year Of Love



Just recently, I have learned of the story of a man named Howard Hughes. He was one of the world’s wealthiest men. His story had a tragic ending. Tragic not because he died. Everybody dies. It was tragic because before his life ended, he had nothing and no one.

The author of the book I was reading said that Hughes “learned how to manipulate everybody around him” to give him and do for him everything he wanted. But the people around him declared that they never really liked him. It was said that “with almost unlimited money, hundreds of aides, and countless beautiful women available to him, he was unloved simply because he chose to be.”

It’s all about our choices, really, isn’t it?

The power to choose is ours only. It would make you think, the Almighty God who made everything and is powerful beyond our imagination, gave us the freedom to choose.

What You Wanted

When I was younger in this field of work I’m in, people were offering me all sorts of things. Some corporate leaders even had disgusting offers in exchange for making it to the top. How these men would make you feel so low simply because that’s exactly how they see themselves, was simply incomprehensible.

But people like that didn’t stop me. It’s important for me to learn. So I can tell you that I am well trained with nearly every part of the organization. I had a good training as a Quality Coach, as a Manager and as a Products Specifications trainer. But I said no to all of these positions.

Please don’t get me wrong but I believe that I am one of those women who can get anything I want in life – actually, I believe we all can get anything we ever wanted – and I mean, anything, but I also know that in my heart of hearts that that was never the choice I wanted to make – to get whatever I wanted.

I had a ‘hiatus’ from serving at church some time in the past. During that time, I just kept seeking God. Asking, confirming, reconfirming His will for my life. I had to get an answer to that one question I had nearly all my life.


We, human beings, were told to be limited because we’re mortals. There are limits to what we can do. But then if you look closely, and history agrees with it, we are built to be unlimited. We live for the moments that allow us to reach the moon and the stars; the moments where we conquer every bit of impossibility that comes our way. Okay, maybe some of us, not all. But I’ve always believed we are limitless.

If you don’t believe me, then read Genesis chapter eleven when humans built the Tower of Babel. We all know what God did there.

It will make you think, if I can do anything, if God has designed me to be able to do anything I ever wanted, and I actually do it, is that it? Never mind what the world says, but is that really all it is?

Never Boring

This year has been challenging but very peaceful for me by the grace of God. I’ve come to know the Holy Spirit in a whole new different way. There were literally times when I’d like to cry because of everything that’s happening, but it’s as if the Holy Spirit shoves me and tells me, there’s no need for tears. So I just kept smiling. And laughing deliriously. It was a year where literally ‘caution’ was unnecessary. I never thought I’d be able to say that in this lifetime. Hahaha!

So, I mean, are we here to live, do whatever we ever wanted, conquer every impossibility that steps in our way, and then eventually, die?

I think God will never be that boring.

And I think if God made me that way, if God designed us, human beings, in such a way, it is because He had something better for me, us to do.

My Choice

What is it that He wanted human beings to do? One of the things that I love about the Word of God – the Bible – is how straight forward it is. I love the book of Leviticus. I hope you can read and learn it. Leviticus chapter nineteen tells us to love others and shows us how to love others.

And then of course, Jesus’ words on Matthew 22:37-39:

And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.

So I can do whatever I want in this life, yes, but I would rather do what He wanted me to do. I can be whoever I want to be in this life, but I would rather be who He has always wanted me to be.

I will endeavor to show Him how much I love Him. I will endeavor to love the people even if that maybe the hardest thing to do in this world.

Isn’t it amazing how He never said, ‘Put your mark in this world while you’re here’ but He commanded us to love Him and then love everyone else?

This Year

This year I’m happy that when my choice was tested, it was still Him. And it will always be Him and His will for the rest of my life. This year I’m glad that God never made it boring. This year God made me understand limitations better. This year God reminded me of what I really ever wanted. This year, to sum it all up, has been a year all about love – to show how much I love Him and to see again how much He really, really loves me.

As this year closes and as we welcome a new year, I pray for more of the love of and for God in our lives. And that we may continue to love our neighbors for His glory.

Happy holidays and may we all have a grand new year too!

Favorite Part


A tear suddenly rolled down her cheek when she saw the photos. A picture paints a thousand words but she saw two. They were enough to communicate to her what was happening. Right there and then, she knew it wasn’t going to happen.

“He couldn’t do it. You knew he couldn’t but you kept believing he could. Now, your heart is broken yet again but this time, it’s more broken than before. Those pieces you tried to put together are now broken down to even more fine pieces. Why do you keep believing that mortal?”

“You know very well what believing him and him betraying you like that, will do to you. You won’t have enough strength left to fight this off. It will consume you.”

Nameth argued reminding her what was at stake because of her belief. He is the guide sent to her to help her recover herself.

She knew what was happening. She can feel it. She can feel every single pain. They are consuming her little by little. Anymore attempts and she will lose everything and be turned over to something she wasn’t meant to be. She knew all of this.

She couldn’t say anything. The grief is too much. Words weren’t powerful enough to conquer it.

“You’re gonna have to do what you have to do. And you’re gonna have to do it with your all. The Mighty One cannot see any residue. You know this.” Nameth reminded her carefully.

She knew Nameth was right. She needed to decide now before she is fully consumed with evil. She knew doing what she needed to do meant she would no longer remember him. She knew doing what needs to be done would meant no recollection of him she dearly loved. But she also knew it had to be done. So with every bit of pain and love for the mortal, she forced herself to stand.

And in complete surrender she uttered the words as powerfully as she could, “I surrender it all to You.”

Suddenly, the dark clouds broke and a great bright light shone on her. And you can see all the ugly scars, all the fresh cuts, all the blood oozing from every part of her body were removed as she was lifted up from the mud. And then the darkness that surrounded her was finally gone.

She was again as white as snow and dazzling like a diamond. When the transformation was finally complete, she smiled and spread her beautiful wings that’s twice as big as her.

“And the voice of the Mighty One resounded, ‘You have done what I wanted you to do. This is love, my child. Well done, my angel.'”

She smiled at Nameth and flew away faster than the wind.

She had no memory. She was happy with the freedom.

Nameth felt happy for her. He looked down on the mortal and uttered the words, “You kept declaring you’re in love with someone else after all the sacrifices she did for you and after all the pain you’ve put her through.”

“Love is not about manipulating people to give you everything you want. Love does not demand its own way. Love cannot be bought by mere clothes, cars and material things the world offers. Love is never about using other people to find out how another person loves you. Love does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love is going out there fearlessly to declare your love without any assurance they’ll love you back. Love is giving your all in all, the very best you can to make them feel loved. Love is about not hurting them. Love is correcting your mistakes. Love is apologising no matter how small the mistake was, and even if you think you didn’t do anything but they felt hurt. Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”

“She would do well without you.”