Guarding AngelΒ 

Some people believe there’s something or someone who guides & guards us in this life. Do you believe that too?

… A Short Story

Spoke with a client today about a claim we were working on. I needed to clarify the number of living children at the time of death of the decedent, and if the person in question was indeed a child of the marriage of the insured. I was speaking with one of the daughters. She cleared her throat and her voice faltered as she started to speak. Moments like that you know that what she was going to tell me will be very difficult for her to utter.

She started to cry. I gave her a moment and then she confirmed the number of living children at the time of her father’s death. Then she gave me the short story. Her father was travelling to get to her sister who was battling cancer when he died. Her sister died a few days later. 

The daughter was 60 years old. And she was the youngest child. 

I mean, fathers do that. They would risk their own lives just to make sure their children are comforted. It was an incredibly sad story but one that I will keep with me for the rest of my life. 

… Even At Seven

Even now writing this I had to pause before continuing. I was seven when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and I remember exactly what I asked our church music director when he told me about Jesus. 

He was strumming his guitar when he sat beside me before the service started. He was playing ‘This Is The Day’ and as he played I started to sing along. He said I have a beautiful voice. He changed the key to see if I can follow his lead, and I did. He changed it again. He was astonished that I could follow the key and I “sang the melody perfectly” according to him. He got all excited and declared “this girl is talented and gifted!” 

He asked me if I have accepted Jesus in my heart. I remember him telling me what Jesus did. And my response was, “He died for me, and rose again to be my Dad?” The music director said yes. And so ever since I have loved Him who gave up His life for me and rose again from the grave so He can take care of me, be my Father, loving, guiding, guarding me in everything and in every way.

… Always Perfect Timing

I find it interesting that when Jesus introduced himself to me, He timed it so perfectly. I mean, He is the only one who can do that – perfect timing. That thing this generation will never appreciate. At this day and age, people think that when they want something, they need to have it “right here, right now.” Regardless of what others feel, this generation wants to prove over and over again that in everything they do “myself” is the supreme being. And that is in fact, a dangerous thing. We have become a generation who take pride of being ‘slaves to our own desires’ Christians and non-believers alike.

But who will make a stand against such a behaviour? Who will stand for the truth of the gospel? Who will choose NOT to be a hypocrite – saying they love God & others but their lives and actions don’t prove it? Who will stand to fight for each other? Who will make a stand to make people understand? Who will make a stand to show people a way out of their misery? Who will? Will you? Duterte will. Hehe..  

I just happen to be someone who will happily refuse to go with this generation’s “flow.” But I believe I am not alone. Will you stand with me? Shall we stand for this together?

… With Every Changing Season

Are you someone who loves Jesus too and wants something but can’t seem to get it? My unsolicited advice is, to wait for His perfect timing. Now, just because you have to wait it doesn’t mean you do nothing. That’s never what it meant. It is actually the perfect opportunity to do so much more for Him while He is preparing everything for you. 

Do you need to talk to some or a lot of people to clarify issues? Do that. Do you need to show someone how much you love them? Do that. Do you need to declare a friendship? Do that. Do you need to apologise to someone? Do that. Do you need to forgive someone? Do that. Do you need to change your lifestyle? Do that. Do you need to travel? Do that. (Okay, this one’s really for me. Hehe.. ) Do you need to let go of something or someone? Do that. Do you need to declare your love for someone? You do that. Don’t waste your time. Get things done as you wait for God’s perfect timing of what are praying, asking Him for. And don’t you dare worry. Learn to trust the One who is the Author of ‘perfect timing.’

… So Undeserving

I am grateful that even if I never deserved it, God made up his mind that He is going to guard me from all the beautifully wrapped selfishness this world offers. I am grateful that God knew exactly how to protect and guard me from people who hadn’t a clue of His perfect timing. 

My nickname is Angel. The name angel, as we all know, means messengers. In the Bible, God commanded his angels to give his message to the people. One of my long-standing prayers has always been that my life be a message of and from God. That my life will magnify, testify, and glorify Jesus. And that is never easy. 

But just like the father in my story at the beginning of this blog, I know that my Heavenly Father would do everything and has already done everything to make sure that I am comforted with every suffering and every difficulty in this life, and that is through the life of His Son, Jesus Christ.

Advertisements

Quietness

These days I am getting more and more comfortable with writing just about everywhere. I find comfort inside a moving train. The sound of it has become a beautiful melody to me. Naks! I would brisk walk in the morning and I would find myself writing all sorts of things like new beautiful ideas, and some pretty angry prose. Hahaha!

My previous weekend was a hard one for me but I too was surprised when after all my crying and praying to God on Sunday and Monday, by Tuesday morning I was happy again. Hahaha! Talk about madness. I felt really good. I couldn’t find a trace of uncertainty. Suddenly, I knew what to do. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for Your comfort, peace and joy!

I find it funny when people feel they can dictate your future and they seem so sure they know what’s best for you. Especially, when they know you are a seeker of God’s will. Other people would find that flattering but that will never work for me. No, thank you. What could work is if people can prove that instead of insulting me all the time. 

Lately, I am rediscovering how silence can be so reassuring. I love how quietness can speak so loudly drowning out all other noises.