Of Thoughtful Mornings
I never really liked this schedule because it always feels like it eats up my life. I’d have to wake up at least 6-7 hrs earlier than I should. That means I get to sleep only 4-5 hrs in a day. Which is not really all that bad, if you think about it.
But then there’s the travel time. I need to give 4hrs at least for travel time to make sure I’m not late for work. And if EDSA decides to be kinder then it could get fifteen minutes more than that.
The thing is, I can’t afford to forget these calculations. I must always remember them. But then sometimes, I choose differently…
You know how sometimes you realise some things late in life? Like, forgetting to turn off a faucet before leaving the house and you have a full day ahead of you? Only remembering it while you’re travelling 120 miles per hour on a freeway to who knows where? Hehe.. I make that mistake some times. I tell myself, I forgot something. Or that I didn’t notice the time. But of course, my boss knows better. Hahaha! We don’t forget something. We don’t NOT notice anything.
We choose to forget something. We choose not to notice things.
Of course, other people forget the worst things that lead to, oh well, who knows what? Like forgetting an iron on. Or we still have cases here in Manila where people who live in the slums still use candle. Someone falls asleep, forgets to blow the candle off and then the next thing you know, they’re in the news. Some make it through alive. Some people die.
To me, it seemed so heartbreaking to be a victim of your own mistakes. To be a victim of your own doing. To suffer from your wrong choices. And whether we care to do admit it or not, it happens. People make those choices. We can’t really do anything about that.
Again, there’s lots of reasons for it. Some choose to be manipulated by other people’s drama. Hahaha! I love this part. The easiest to spot and the most pathetic kind of reason. Still, others say, sometimes they forget. Sometimes they fall asleep.
And so for some, that’s how their choices are made.